I posted the sign above hoping that it comes true :). Life has a way of fooling you into a comfort level where "everything is alright" and you let your guard down. I think I must have lessons still to learn because I keep getting these lemons thrown at me and I have NO idea how to make lemonade.
In recent weeks, work has become nuts, my step mom has been in the hospital (and my Dad is already not doing great), my son and brother are out of work and now the one granddaughter I have contact with is being moved to another state with her Mom. There are other things but I won't bore you. I have let some tears roll while driving to work lately just trying to wrap my head around whats going on in my life.
This week an old friend of mine lost his wife to cancer, another lost her Mother to a heart attack and I realized that I need to get it together. While I knew both of the ones above who passed, they weren't my family and it didn't happen to ME. My family is alive and mostly healthy. I also realized that change happens but the older I get, I'm not so certain I like that. Hmmm..my elders would love to hear me admit that, but I won't in front of them. LOL.
I'm going to be stronger and better equipped than yesterday to deal with changes, good or bad. I just have to accept that those things I don't have control over will change whether I like it or not. I will have to accept that people will make decisions without making my desires the center of that moment. I don't exactly know how I'll measure that strength but I can tell you that when I look back over the last 12 years, that its working. I just need to remember that going forward.
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